"I wanted you to be there when I fall,

I wanted you to see me through it all"

So, here I am again.

Currently still confused. I've no idea what to do.

Trying to take everything out from my brain. Not trying to mess up. My feelings yes, mixed. Different types of dramatic emotions that kept on changing. When on earth will all these feelings stop? I can barely think straight. What can I possibly do? All I've been doing is ponder. I'm still trying to figure out why am I so puzzled, lost in a maze trying to find the way out. There's so much to think about. But non of that seems to ring the bell. How do I make myself feel better? I can't keep on staying up late, just thinking about it. This holiday, it's such a despondency. Such a, i don't know, bore? Sigh. I feel so out of place. I don't quite know the reason why I'd hide my emotions sometimes. Acting as if I'm happy and there's nothing to worry about, when deep down inside I feel lonely in a way, spiritless. Oh well.

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I'm sorry if I made things go worst, or something? I just seriously wonder, why must you always say his name out? Is he that irresistible to talk about?, i shall ask. I mean like come on, he has moved on and plus, he don't like me anymore. Your problem is? His just a friend, best friend i shall add. Like come on, why can you have all the (girl)friends you want but I can't? Don't you even trust me? When i want everything to be okay, must you start it up again? And alter my emotions? Trust me, I don't have afreaking scandal, okay. Yeah sure I forgive but will I forget? I've never said any names to you, have i? No right?

Ah. I've have enough. I'm done with this. I don't want all these to continue okay? Things will get better, hopefully. T_T Oh & you're forgiven cause you know how much I don't like you apologizing. Sigh.

You don't know how much I miss you boyfy)':

I've been thinking twice bout this paragraph[?] Gheez. Sigh.

omg I'm seriously hungry.